I think you need to ask yourself the much more difficult what your real desire is. I'm not in the same boat, but might have similar desires.
Do I want an adventurous life?
Do I like nature?
Do I like to socialize?
Are all the people around me dead inside?
Do I like to solve problems, all the time?
Do I hate working with legacy systems?
Do I want to have more of a direct impact with people?
Do I prefer working out of cafes?
Make your own list, those are some off of mine. They might help direct your decision making. These are hard problems that can be immensely stressful. Don't waste your time or parent's money. Consider opportunity cost. Don't burn yourself out. Sometimes you need to shit you don't want to do to get somewhere.
I'd also go out and try to meat someone in the fields and who meet the criteria you're considering. Ask them in real life everything you can.
Do I want an adventurous life? Do I like nature? Do I like to socialize? Are all the people around me dead inside? Do I like to solve problems, all the time? Do I hate working with legacy systems? Do I want to have more of a direct impact with people? Do I prefer working out of cafes?
Make your own list, those are some off of mine. They might help direct your decision making. These are hard problems that can be immensely stressful. Don't waste your time or parent's money. Consider opportunity cost. Don't burn yourself out. Sometimes you need to shit you don't want to do to get somewhere.
I'd also go out and try to meat someone in the fields and who meet the criteria you're considering. Ask them in real life everything you can.